A bet for catharsis from M. T. Hadley.
We get sent a lot of songs here at i-D. A lot of them are good, some of them aren't very good. Occasionally though, we're sent a drop-everything kind of track; a song that fills your mind and swallows you up and this is one of them. It was sent over late last night by a singer called M. T. Hadley. We'd heard a song of his before - last year's Funes - and liked it. He does a fine-line in half-falsetto, synth-pop and on this, his latest release, Janet, directly confronts the grief of losing his mother to cancer. "It's a track I began writing a year after her death - once I felt ready," he describes. "It was completed earlier this month, and I release it today - three years since she died - hoping it will serve to both honour her memory, and grant me some catharsis." It feels strange to over-analyse a song like this, but all we really want to say is that in its mournful sparsity, Janet manages to describe a sense of love and loss without once feeling mawkish; a glorious bum chord in the middle eight more emotive than a thousand right ones ever could be. "Through music I am able to express things too difficult to say, and sing things too trite to say aloud," he describes. "Janet is an optimistic celebration: the unseen procession of a brass band, quietly led by me." Press play below.
Photo Eloise Parry